hmmm its been so long. wonder if anyone even comes here anymore. anyway, since im blogging. means i have something to say or i just wanna express my emotions thru.....SOMETHING. -.-?

yea so.....

life has been crappy and sucky. ever since my bro went into NS. the entire grp of us just feels so 'gone' to me. duno why leh. talk about meetings. i wonder if it makes any difference at all. whats the point of agreeing to something that in the end, decide to change. its not just the indecisiveness, it can also lead to the disruption of a good day's plan! so much so its ridiculous. then come pop up some 'replacement' activity, might as well forget it?

then whats the point of making the effort to keep days free just for a small gathering and then on the day before cancel on it? then having talks of wanting to change the usual plan but then never gets down to deciding on ANYTHING, yet again.

yea i get that there's sch and work and blah blah blah of ur life. well, SURPRISE! gab has a life too!? and i plan and manage my time to suit the best i can, but no one else gives a shit? or so it seems, too bad if im wrong. i just hate last min 'aeroplane flights'.

yea i know its probably selfish of me to be saying things like this, but HEY! i think its pretty unfair that these decisions come with a reason and i can only say 'ok'. and besides, no one cares anw? family dun even bother. they're like 'hey u're 20, u can be responsible for ur own actions.' but goes 'drive carefully, etc etc.' when in the car with me, not once or twice or thrice but some ridiculous uncountable number of times. lol? and everything else about me they're not bothered. there's a difference between the well being of the body and the well being of the mind u know?

ooo next! the love life. haha want to 'reconcile' but duno if its the right thing to do. dun even know if the other party still has feelings huh? not like i can just ask. lol. but wud the party be willing to sacrifice the weekends once i go NS? and how sure am i that the r/s will work out fine? ohh dilemas....but then, aiyo, not like there isnt anything going on? chu lian is never forgotten. how how how?

kk not like anyone wud ever read this since its been dead for so long. and yea i have a problem, and im ready to talk it out as frens. thanks~ =D

if anyone cares even, they'll find a way to read this. . . .not that its very hard....

first post in 2011!! =D

just realised i haven't blogged in...so long. okay actually it didn't feel that long to me. time just flies by without notice. its FEB already!!

okay good news is all my projects are finally over. hmmm maybe that's why i don't notice time flew, cause i'm so busy with choinging projects!!

yeah then all that's left now is the one and only paper on 28th Feb. which is in two days time, and i haven't finished studying for it! LOL!

and come to think of it, i don't know what i'm going to do after the paper. other than work and driving, i have nothing else to do till i go army which is don't know when since they have not issued me the enlistment letter.

and to add on to whatever, i don't know where's the journey going in my faith now.

after stepping down from president, i don't know what i should do now. leave the group and focus on the youth group? or carry on in the group. just afraid that i won't be able to leave if i remain attached to it. considering i already a bit bu she de.

learnt a few days ago that two of my juniors have received a calling. i was shocked due to the fact that it was the unexpected two! then again, where's MY calling? dot dot dot

don't know what's next. hopefully in time, He will show me. or tell me. i really need some advice on 'what's next?'

lol quite some time since i blogged already. was going thru some other's blogs and realised that my own blog is so dead. hahaha.

wells. lets see. a lot has happened and a lot hasn't. shall go over it one by one bahs.

sch has stopped for a while for now. well duh exams over and christmas is coming. so yea. had my first and last paper. quite easy bahs. really feel tat the Z grade is give away de. but heng i checked my work. (usually i dont bother) the answer was 2.55. but i got 4.3. LOL big diff hor? duno how i calculate also. i actually pressed into the calculator another 4 more times to confirm it. cos if that part of the qn was wrong, then the following qn wud be wrong too. heng sia. duno how many marks i wud lose if i din check.

this term has been quite sad for me. like always nowhere to go after school. always go home or go work only. like the usual friends just separated due to timetable change. quite sad sia. haiz. now holiday also nv really meet up. . . . . sad sia.

church. lets see. how shud i start. for one, im stepping down in KOA. duno if it was a good or bad thing. but seems like its the best choice. dun even know wat i succeeded in doing in koa during my 'reign' as President. like everything either dun work out or dun come into place. it was so irritating. maybe its my leadership wrong. this time, with the ministry back in the hands of dexter, gerard, glen and uncle freeman, i think it wud (not shud) be a hell lot better. they are finally seeing eye to eye.

many juniors and seniors dun want me to step down. other boys who were intending to join after being 'inspired' by me also tell me dun step down. but i shud have seen this coming and read the signs as well. oh wells.

hopefully, the juniors and seniors will be able to adapt bahs. cos the methods to be used are definitely gonna be on a higher level than compared to mine. Leave it to God bahs. =))

my life as it is. realised a lot of things and learnt a lot of things about the people ard me already. though not all of it was wat i had expected. =x

and they come with disappointments and honours. guess i can say 'moved' as well? lol

they say people change. but how can the change in people affect the very relation, frenship, that keeps people together? this is ridiculous. oh wells. i guess only my brother and i will be left in the end. thats not that bad either actually. =) but who knows what happens when he gets attached? hahaha. actually i cant wait to see that happen. heh.

speaking of getting attached. im single for......say.......7 months already? feels so fast yet so slow. somehow. like super duper free now sia! LOL!

being single, one will experience the jealousy of others who are in love. being attached, one will experience the joy and freedom of being single.. thus, wat's the persue of happiness?

this also cannot, that also cannot. is it really that complicated? ahh duno luhh. taxing on brain cells.

another topic in my life now that all my frens are 'legal': drinking.

duno but its getting a bit irritating that people ard me keep reminding me about the bad effects of alcohol and so on. . . . . . .on . . . . . . .

yea i get it. it harms ur liver, kidney. without them = diu. . . . .diu. . . .

but HEY! if u can comment to me about it, then that means u shud know me well enuff to do so, or else u have no right, isnt it?

not being boastful or whatsoever, but, come on, anyone who knows me truly shud know that my will is stronger than my thoughts.

i know the dangers whatsoever. y the hell wud i wanna go kill myself so much?

does going pub = drinking a lot? or

does getting drunk = drinking a lot?

duno leh. just feel like a bit retarded. legal le go pub to chill. one bottle share with 10+ ppl.

its not even 1litre somemore. so how to judge wat is drinking a lot? who knows maybe i go there drink green tea with 1ml of martel/chivas?

wanna talk about health and alcohol? we humans take in fat/oil in food every single day. fat gives rise to a lot of other health problems, so do we dun eat? or do we dun take drinks for fear that it was too much sugar content in it? air is not always clean, so how? dun breathe meh?

drink water also there will be the issue of distilled water, oxygenated water, etc. so which is less harmful? does that mean that the more harmful one cannot drink?

yea i GET IT about being CONCERNED and all. but everytime say the same thing buay sian ah? kinda makes one avoid the other instead right? like got nth else to talk about liddat.

concern only plays that role of being concerned, and has limits.

ahh i just decided to type out watever was on my mind. no offence intended. not really in the right state of mind to 'be nice'.

kk i shall stop here. read. comment. criticize. whatever. lalala

woots 3am in the morning. and gab is still awake. he wonders why. lol.

Japan student exchange trip was FUN! buddy was super cute sia. hahahaha. everything he do and the way he does everything. very funny! took many photos too. din find the time to blog about it. oh wells. and gab managed to survive without the computer for 7 days! wooo~

made many new frens also and learnt many new things about people and about japan culture!! hehe. wanna go back sia. thinking of migrating there. but.....i duno. haha. see how bahs i guess. so many scandals happened during the trip too. shant go into details.

ok enough about the past. moving on!~

TODAY! had swensens at airport. picked dad at 9pm. woots so late dinner eh? turns out his job interview was a success! and he starts work on nov 3rd. oh wells. that also means he's going to cambodia for 5 years.? good thing also bahs. he can update himself with technology and also continue bringing toasted bread to the table. hehe =D

sch has started for gab. quite ridiculous. having the same timetable as corn and wj but we all different class from each other. omg. first few days of sch has been rather interesting thanks to BB ppl. at least some laughter in it. =DD

MP hasnt finished and we are not doing anything about it. WOW. LOL!

oh oh watching Big Bang documentary now and wah, big bang has totally earned all my respect! seeing how much they gave up for the sake of their common dream, singing. i know other bands also gave up a lot, but i seriously doubt it would be as bad as this. got death and objections, etc involved. quite jialat. i actually teared for taeyang's story part. ><

probably gonna try sleeping soon. quite lazy to carry on typing ah.....

just some thoughts....

they say that only when things are about to disappear, do we start to learn how to cherish them.... i wonder if that is true. i somewhat do not feel that way much...

how can this world have such selfish people who only think for themselves.? not asking to be repaid for my deeds but at least spare me some time? or attention?

aren't we a clique? what are friends for? i DUNNO anymore!

ok time to blog i shud say? since so many happening things happening in my happening life. ok dun get lost. =/

birthday was on 17th Sep. duh....

16th sep.

i was meeting wj, corn, jia qi, chun ling, qian yu at marina square at 4pm. amazingly i was on time. then i went to play arcade while waiting. wj came at 4.40. corn came ard 4.50. woots?

yea then jiaqi came at.....quite late. hahaha forget le. then we went to eat at food court. cos i dun want long john. chun ling and qian yu were meeting us at night. sad.

alrights then after dinner went raffles city walk walk blah blah. slacked at starbucks.

then went to boat quay's whisky bar pub. (i think thats wat the pub was called?)

yea then met corn's singer fren, yu xiang. holy shit he sing dam zai! okie then after that drank a bit here and there. very mild giddiness (those not enuff to affect me kind)

THEN at 12am......birthday song came. and one by one gan lai gan que happy birthday here and there. drank about duno how many cups la. think 7? or more? or less?

then i was still fine for 5-10mins. after that i was a goner. -.-

yes, gab sng actually got drunk. -.-

then then then alot of dam unglamming things happened. fall down a lot sia. duno how. then keep luffing to myself. like those IMH patients u know? (not like i've seen one)

other than that i cudnt really remember wat happened. had to ask ppl wats going on...

then after that ard 2plus i think i finally fell asleep.. . . .on wj. LOL

then woke up 15mins+ later, and the alcohol burnt up already. =) i was awake. dam funny.

me: i was drunk right?

wj(thinking i was still not sober): nono, u not drunk. go sleep go sleep.

me(-.- - ing away): i'm awake le. i was drunk right?

wj: YES!

LOL! dam funny la. then i went ard apologising to ppl cos i think i troubled a lot of ppl ard. and corn said i was crazy, for apologising. -.-?

yea after that supper. but i din eat. who wud after tat state?

sent jiaqi home then went home and facebooked a while. and slept. finally.

17th sep

woke up and got ready. ben and jerald came to put their stuff down.

headed out to meet atticus at marina square. (yes marina square again).

ate pasta de wakaru. thanks atticus for treating me! =))

sarah came shortly after. *first surprise, i din know she was coming.

after that we went....erm....kbox! yes. dam funny at how jerald goes off tune. atticus was singing too! sarah sang like...erm...nvm. hehe. go figure =)

then after that i left my member card on the table! -.- *only realised that i did 2 days later.

yea after that atticus had to go. so took some picts. will be on facebook...SOON. LOL.

then after that we went to suntec to slack slack. and then....ian appeared with my cake. i was so pissed with him cos i thot he wasnt coming... -.- *second 'surprise' that jerald planned.

after that i found out sarah was staying over as well. *third surprise.

then after that we ate the cake the old fashion way. =). heng sai no cake smash.

ok then sarah left cos she needed to go to the airport.

kk went to carrefour to buy alcohol. deciding between martell and martini. i even went to sms corn to ask the difference. -.-

then end up bought the cheaper one. (DID NOT KNOW IT HAD APPLE JUICE MIXED WITH IT. DISGUSTING TASTE!)

went home. bathed etc. then soon sarah came over. and we started drinking. hehe made myself drunk even though the alcohol was disgusting. just kept spamming.

yet again, alot of things happened. this time it was worse to some extent. shant go into details. =)

then finally slept. poor jerald had to sleep so uncomfortably the whole night. *SRY BRO! IF I WAS SOBER I WUD HAVE MADE SURE U SLEPT PROPERLY!!!!

yea.....woke up....and they gave me my present. -.- fred perry wallet. (no wonder something held me back when i wanted to go in the wallet shop at marina sqaure)

thus, *4th surprise. cos they said that i said its ok, dun need get present. which i clearly did. so i really thot they din buy. since they were already paying for everything! ><

after that slacked ard a bit. then went to tpy ichiban for lunch. then headed home with sarah for a while and then go out at 6plusPM to meet marianne venn and yy. so we went to eat at "food for thoughts". great food. had another surprise by them = a cake. dam funny. yy was acting so retarded and all. they dam smart. get of all ppl yy to lie to me. -.-

after that went arcade play bishibashi. then wanted to ddr but there were too many pros there. para para-ed a bit. sarah was a disgrace. but oh wells. first timers. then went back home after that. tiring sia....sianness was all in the way. =/

conclude:

THANKS BUDDIES FOR THE NIGHT ON 16TH! TAKING CARE OF ME AND ALL WHEN I WAS ER-HEM... =))

THANK YOU MY BROTHER, JERALD, FOR PLANNING MY ENTIRE 17TH. BEST BIRTHDAY SO FAR!(COS LAST YEAR I PLANNED MY OWN. -.-!) AND ALL THE LIES AND EFFORT YOU PUT IN. IT WAS WORTH IT, I PROMISE YOU. LOL!

THANKS MARIANNE AND VENN FOR THE 18TH! IT WAS ENJOYABLE.

and THANK YOU ALL FOR THE WISHES!

hehe so long nv blog already. so many things happening. lets see. i shall go from latest to last. ok dun make sense. watever.

ytd was darren's bdae!! 16th Aug! woot.

went bugis after school to meet the peeps. yy, mel, bobby, then darren and mark came late. some things nv change. -.-

then i kena suan like siao also. oh wells, SOME THINGS NV CHANGE! =.=!!

yea yea had steamboat dinner somewhere near bugis. then after that went to arcade watch darren and bobby play maxtune. played bishibashi too. a

mazing thing is YY and MEL owes ME money! wahahaha. first time i think.

kk photos!

from left: yy, mel, darren, me, mark(behind), bobby

the bdae boy! =) actually took quite a few. but i thot this one was nice.

kk other than ytd, sun was a tiring day. meetings after meetings. i still cry sia. LOL kk shant go there.

last fri to sat! stayover at shawn's hse. i watched airbender again. then walked to shawn's hse from lot 1. somwhow felt dam dam dam dam far! and justin was trying to bend everything! hahaha. dam funny.

then went the creepy and eerie fitness corner. started doing pull-ups and all. then after that slack slack then go back.

oh oh then we played the fainting game cos we were dam bored. and they wanna try. experience like no other. then keep playing. zzz. make a lot of noise sia.

then suddenly shawn's dad come in. scary!! sry uncle!! =xx

anw cant post any videos or picts of this event. very sensitive. LOL!

yea then slept ard 3plus4.

JUSTIN and SHAWN were SLEEPTALKING! hahaha. dam funny!! me and isaac kept luffing.

ok sat woke up then shawn's mum made breakfast. so nice. ><

after that i went to meet jerald for haircut. eh sia la. just remembered. din take photo. erk.

then so dumb. waited 1 hr for the haircut. haha. after that he went home. cos there was no one at city hall practicing bboy and there were so many policemen. hahah. like i said jerald, 3/4 events completed in one day. so good enuff. hehe

after that went church then went home. so tiring sia.....

kk shall stop here.

haven blogged in years!

ANW ANW, my rx-8 looked like scrap metal when i tried to import it to Unity3D. Therefore, i had to redo and hell it looks a lot better! woots!~

kk last sat when clubbing!! many many things happened then. shan't reveal. hehe =P

then last sat was shawn's bdae too! happy belated! though i wished already!

last sat was the sec3s confirmation too! wah so happening on one day uh?

today school i finally went to try the scripting after so long of delays. then got stuck after 20mins. holy mama. -.-

then something dam stupid happened today!

i used a different wallet for clubbing on sat.

then i took out all my important cards, was gonna transfer back to my old wallet, THEN i forgot! =.=

so i went to school without an ez-link and IC. heng got ppl send and fetch today. =)

kk a lot has happened and a lot has changed. a lot hasnt changed too. oh wells. life. -.-

sian. dam sian these days. duno wat to go. go for it or dun go for it?? o.o

o-ho..