gab is posting again!! =DD

MY BROTHER IS BACK!! WHOO~! hahaha. talked on the phone for like.....30-45mins i think. quite long hor. lol. but it was fun. so many things to talk about. marching, meals, sleeps, bathings, kinda alot. also got specialists, commando, officers, etc etc. quite cool. hee. happy. =D prolly meeting him in the evening tmr! then can see him in his uniform. haha.

WORK today! woots two days in a row le. legs pain liaos. haha. tmr PH! BUT gab isnt working. :(

so no double pay. oh wells. but im going pool with justin shawn and his gf!! 3am in the morning and im still wide awake... haha

just watched naruto movie. and its only 'normal'. pop out one LEGENDARY super rasengan. LOL! hahaha dam funny.

oh oh OH! i applied for part time job at 'Bottles & Bottles'. just OPPOSITE Joe & Dough! hahaha. thot of learning about wine since i have the time to take on two part time jobs. hehe.

man i wanna learn dancing! but duno if i shud go hip hop or breaking. breaking seems more fun but hiphop like more interesting. erk. DILEMAS! also wanna learn BOJUKA! like quite cool. oh man. so many things. hahaha. all cost $$! needa work more first. ><

oh ya today watched fast and furious 5. wasnt tat fantastic to me. well, i din have an expectation to begin with. so oh wells.

woots i shall blog more from now on. so encouraging to blog with this skin. hehe. anw work today! man i shud really get a second part time job soon. like work this one so many months le. lol.

anw today there was these female customers who were super irritating. wth. we close le still sit there so long. literally 3-4hrs. omg. end up i cant sweep or mop the floor. becos the two of them SIT THERE in the MIDDLE of the whole area. i cant start sweeping/mopping ANYWHERE cos i duno when they wud leave. bloody hell. i started sweeping at like 10.30pm. and we close at 10pm. wtf. zzz

kk very shagged journey home. kinda rubbish. carrying so many breads home. dun even know why i care. i bring home sandwiches for the ppl in the hse to have for breakfast the next day and shithell dun eat it the next morning. then wasted the sandwiches, end up throw away. cud have left it at the store for the staff ppl to eat. bring home cakes also dun eat. wait till gonna spoil or spoil already then come ask me whether can eat. walao.

ANW my brother is booking out tmr! cos of vesak day. but then he's going back on the night of vesak. erk. but he's gonna come out again on sat.....EVENING.. omg im working. LOL!?

dam fail. prolly try to meet him on tues or something. hopefully. =P

OH and i wanna watch priest! bloody hell keep hearing ppl ard me talk about how nice it is and its not horror. duno why the cinemas rate it as horror. not like there's ghosts or demons or whatever. cos of this dumb rating, so many ppl dun wanna watch with me. -.-?

kk shall stop here. working tmr at 9am!! =x earlyyy. and its 1am now. time to sleep! =D

haha been so free lately. shall start updating my blog. lol.

ok woke up dam late today. cos slept at 5+. clubbing was fun man. somehow. HAHA

yea yea went lunch with sis and mum at city square mall at 3pm. holy shit so late lunch hor. drove there then drove home. took passport and went into JB with mum to collect my contact lens. learnt to pump petrol and had groceries shopping followed by dinner. wanton mee was GOOD! whoo~

drove back from woodlands checkpoint. wah nice to speed once in a while. =D went to pp to tapao dinner for dad then went home. quite shoik today drive quite long, terms of distance.

hmmm im so free man. kinda miss sch. dam. can i like go sch and crash someone's lecture? hahaha.

working tmr ! but its 4pm to 11pm. shagg. then sat going out with shawn and justin. like finally. their exams over. shawn gonna intro his gf also. heard she's good at pool. HMMMM...

anw prolly changing this dumb blogskin and songs SOONish. kinda lazy lately. =x

oh oh and i wanna go TAIWAN! or BINTAN RESORTS! go holiday before army.. :(

kk shall end here. tiring day. buaiz~

man it feels great to just let it all out. even if they're selfish thots/emotions, im not deleting the post. its for the eyes of myself and those who care. =))

hmmm its been so long. wonder if anyone even comes here anymore. anyway, since im blogging. means i have something to say or i just wanna express my emotions thru.....SOMETHING. -.-?

yea so.....

life has been crappy and sucky. ever since my bro went into NS. the entire grp of us just feels so 'gone' to me. duno why leh. talk about meetings. i wonder if it makes any difference at all. whats the point of agreeing to something that in the end, decide to change. its not just the indecisiveness, it can also lead to the disruption of a good day's plan! so much so its ridiculous. then come pop up some 'replacement' activity, might as well forget it?

then whats the point of making the effort to keep days free just for a small gathering and then on the day before cancel on it? then having talks of wanting to change the usual plan but then never gets down to deciding on ANYTHING, yet again.

yea i get that there's sch and work and blah blah blah of ur life. well, SURPRISE! gab has a life too!? and i plan and manage my time to suit the best i can, but no one else gives a shit? or so it seems, too bad if im wrong. i just hate last min 'aeroplane flights'.

yea i know its probably selfish of me to be saying things like this, but HEY! i think its pretty unfair that these decisions come with a reason and i can only say 'ok'. and besides, no one cares anw? family dun even bother. they're like 'hey u're 20, u can be responsible for ur own actions.' but goes 'drive carefully, etc etc.' when in the car with me, not once or twice or thrice but some ridiculous uncountable number of times. lol? and everything else about me they're not bothered. there's a difference between the well being of the body and the well being of the mind u know?

ooo next! the love life. haha want to 'reconcile' but duno if its the right thing to do. dun even know if the other party still has feelings huh? not like i can just ask. lol. but wud the party be willing to sacrifice the weekends once i go NS? and how sure am i that the r/s will work out fine? ohh dilemas....but then, aiyo, not like there isnt anything going on? chu lian is never forgotten. how how how?

kk not like anyone wud ever read this since its been dead for so long. and yea i have a problem, and im ready to talk it out as frens. thanks~ =D

if anyone cares even, they'll find a way to read this. . . .not that its very hard....

first post in 2011!! =D

just realised i haven't blogged in...so long. okay actually it didn't feel that long to me. time just flies by without notice. its FEB already!!

okay good news is all my projects are finally over. hmmm maybe that's why i don't notice time flew, cause i'm so busy with choinging projects!!

yeah then all that's left now is the one and only paper on 28th Feb. which is in two days time, and i haven't finished studying for it! LOL!

and come to think of it, i don't know what i'm going to do after the paper. other than work and driving, i have nothing else to do till i go army which is don't know when since they have not issued me the enlistment letter.

and to add on to whatever, i don't know where's the journey going in my faith now.

after stepping down from president, i don't know what i should do now. leave the group and focus on the youth group? or carry on in the group. just afraid that i won't be able to leave if i remain attached to it. considering i already a bit bu she de.

learnt a few days ago that two of my juniors have received a calling. i was shocked due to the fact that it was the unexpected two! then again, where's MY calling? dot dot dot

don't know what's next. hopefully in time, He will show me. or tell me. i really need some advice on 'what's next?'

lol quite some time since i blogged already. was going thru some other's blogs and realised that my own blog is so dead. hahaha.

wells. lets see. a lot has happened and a lot hasn't. shall go over it one by one bahs.

sch has stopped for a while for now. well duh exams over and christmas is coming. so yea. had my first and last paper. quite easy bahs. really feel tat the Z grade is give away de. but heng i checked my work. (usually i dont bother) the answer was 2.55. but i got 4.3. LOL big diff hor? duno how i calculate also. i actually pressed into the calculator another 4 more times to confirm it. cos if that part of the qn was wrong, then the following qn wud be wrong too. heng sia. duno how many marks i wud lose if i din check.

this term has been quite sad for me. like always nowhere to go after school. always go home or go work only. like the usual friends just separated due to timetable change. quite sad sia. haiz. now holiday also nv really meet up. . . . . sad sia.

church. lets see. how shud i start. for one, im stepping down in KOA. duno if it was a good or bad thing. but seems like its the best choice. dun even know wat i succeeded in doing in koa during my 'reign' as President. like everything either dun work out or dun come into place. it was so irritating. maybe its my leadership wrong. this time, with the ministry back in the hands of dexter, gerard, glen and uncle freeman, i think it wud (not shud) be a hell lot better. they are finally seeing eye to eye.

many juniors and seniors dun want me to step down. other boys who were intending to join after being 'inspired' by me also tell me dun step down. but i shud have seen this coming and read the signs as well. oh wells.

hopefully, the juniors and seniors will be able to adapt bahs. cos the methods to be used are definitely gonna be on a higher level than compared to mine. Leave it to God bahs. =))

my life as it is. realised a lot of things and learnt a lot of things about the people ard me already. though not all of it was wat i had expected. =x

and they come with disappointments and honours. guess i can say 'moved' as well? lol

they say people change. but how can the change in people affect the very relation, frenship, that keeps people together? this is ridiculous. oh wells. i guess only my brother and i will be left in the end. thats not that bad either actually. =) but who knows what happens when he gets attached? hahaha. actually i cant wait to see that happen. heh.

speaking of getting attached. im single for......say.......7 months already? feels so fast yet so slow. somehow. like super duper free now sia! LOL!

being single, one will experience the jealousy of others who are in love. being attached, one will experience the joy and freedom of being single.. thus, wat's the persue of happiness?

this also cannot, that also cannot. is it really that complicated? ahh duno luhh. taxing on brain cells.

another topic in my life now that all my frens are 'legal': drinking.

duno but its getting a bit irritating that people ard me keep reminding me about the bad effects of alcohol and so on. . . . . . .on . . . . . . .

yea i get it. it harms ur liver, kidney. without them = diu. . . . .diu. . . .

but HEY! if u can comment to me about it, then that means u shud know me well enuff to do so, or else u have no right, isnt it?

not being boastful or whatsoever, but, come on, anyone who knows me truly shud know that my will is stronger than my thoughts.

i know the dangers whatsoever. y the hell wud i wanna go kill myself so much?

does going pub = drinking a lot? or

does getting drunk = drinking a lot?

duno leh. just feel like a bit retarded. legal le go pub to chill. one bottle share with 10+ ppl.

its not even 1litre somemore. so how to judge wat is drinking a lot? who knows maybe i go there drink green tea with 1ml of martel/chivas?

wanna talk about health and alcohol? we humans take in fat/oil in food every single day. fat gives rise to a lot of other health problems, so do we dun eat? or do we dun take drinks for fear that it was too much sugar content in it? air is not always clean, so how? dun breathe meh?

drink water also there will be the issue of distilled water, oxygenated water, etc. so which is less harmful? does that mean that the more harmful one cannot drink?

yea i GET IT about being CONCERNED and all. but everytime say the same thing buay sian ah? kinda makes one avoid the other instead right? like got nth else to talk about liddat.

concern only plays that role of being concerned, and has limits.

ahh i just decided to type out watever was on my mind. no offence intended. not really in the right state of mind to 'be nice'.

kk i shall stop here. read. comment. criticize. whatever. lalala