30th May

woot so cool. I'm blogging thru my phone!!
hahaha. there's really an app for every single thing huh?
kk been talking to a few ppl and doing some kind of thinking. came to a conclusion: why make life so miserable by being frustrated over things u can't control? wats the pt? lol.
thus gab has decided that he's just gonna try his best to be happy everyday. of cos will have the bad days. won't have so lucky the whole week is good. liddat no balance. lol.

anw work was kinda fun ytd with all the scrubbing. machiam playing. use the scrub to create some sorta pattern with the scrub marks. quite nice lo. picts prolly on Facebook I guess. will upload later.

today marks the end of Chinese olvls for the sec 4s. that's why I'm going out with my children! LOL! and Justin apparently. cos it's the hols. and I din even know it was.

oh oh went gym today and it was unite sianning. wanna tone muscles then end up building them instead. lol!! quite shit.

kk maybe will blog again tonight. shall stop here. train coming. lol.

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28th May

thoughts - the product of mental activity.

thoughts thoughts thoughts. such a dangerous yet supposedly harmless thing. well i shall let them be penned here. -.-

graduation ceremony was quite a blast with all the photo-takings and whatnots. with alot of other rubbish stuffs happening. went changi airport eat dinner then ben sent all of us home. supposedly. we travelled ard singapore before that happened cos got lost. erk. amazing. PIE also can lost. -.-

graduation marks the official end of poly education and starts the journey to future endeavours. but somehow i dun feel so. the only future i currently have, at least for the next two years is, army. means that i cant get a proper job. and part time always ALWAYS have lesser benefits. this is crap. what screwed up system is this. makes life so fking fked. -.-?

trust - reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing.

yep im quite positive i dun have them from the people who are supposed to be the closest to me. how cool. -.-

having six months of time and a few goals. wats He trying to tell me? that i can sit down and start thinking properly for myself and think about what to do? is that it? if thats the case, then i must probably be not thinking enuff cos everything seems to go fking out. -.-! and the irony is gab always ttm. how can i of all ppl be not thinking enuff? ? ? -.-

recently, i've been losing the mood to do everything and anything. even eat. guess its good cos i'll lose some weight? then its not good cos its unhealthy and unfitting for the body. then wats right? eat already put on the unnecessary weight then becomes a health hazard. eating enuff is the right way? but whats eating enuff? is there a distinction ? ? -.-?

i needa stop being so moody, like fking soon. if not how to go retreat from 9-12 june. wont be mentally prepared. God, pls help me. and i mean it seriously. not metaphorically. . . -.-

lastly, sometimes i really wonder. am i really 20 this year? -.-?

P.S. just realised every paragraph ends with a '-.-'. now tats wat i call consistency.

Today a very interesting thing happened at work. -.- Gab breaks a cup! LOL! ok not that im very proud of it. but here's how it looked in the end:

Yea. looks quite cool uh? hahaha.

Anw after work, i stayed a while and talked to manager. quite epic moment. he thot my breakfast was a sanitary pad. -.- cos of the packaging and design of the plastic bag. he actually went to poke it and realised it was soft. thats how he derived that it was a pad. wts!?

yea anw tmr....or shud i say TODAY, thurs! is my grad! somehow not say very excited. quite sianed actually. falling sick and have been having a lot of dilemmas lately. sad sad.

oh wells, shit happens. okok gonna stop here since there's pictures, for once. not just words.

kk prolly gonna sleep soon~

today was a very fcked up day -.- sry the post started like this. omg la. ok the only good thing that happened was that i wasn't late for work!

kk i reached my workplace. then it was SUPER DUPER HOT! omg. whats with the weather man. the aircon ard my workplace area seems to be useless somemore. literally u take one step out of the flooring of my workplace and u can feel the cool aircon already. wth sia.

and guess what?? i cut my own finger today. pretty deep cut. had to keep changing the dressing and plasters and applying medication cos afterall, i work in an F&B outlet. wts sia. so pain. duno how i cut de. cut 3 breads nth wrong, 4th one kena. was thinking bout something -.- then the next thing i know there was blood on the glove i was wearing. -.-? yea and the blood flowed non stop for 3mins+. wts sia. duno how much blood i lost. machiam waterfall.

yea ok drank ALOT of water today. duno why. think the air is really humid. after work headed home and omg i fell asleep on the floor! LOL! like straight after i replied ppl on whatsapp i just decided to lie down and close my eyes and i fell asleep for 30mins. -.- talk about naps.

after that went to bathe and applied medication and put a plaster again.

cooked and ate korean mee after that. watched smallville from then till now. finally finished season 10. last one le. took him 10 seasons to fly. and at the last episode then he flew. -.-?

kk tmr no work! but gonna go cut hair in the afternoon. have an interview with Bottles & Bottles at 11.30am! so early! yea and since grad ceremony is on thurs, i have to cut tmr. cos wed working. and so sad that my dad cant make it on thurs. cudnt take leave. :(

and not just that! ben and jerald cant come take photos with me either. ian and eunice wud be in sch at least. and champ, sarah, mar and venn gonna make special trip down to take photo with me! =DD

yea yea. kk getting late. gonna sleep. nitex~

watched priest today with champ. and was so disappointed!! action was good la i admit but the storyline is like so screwed. right from the beginning of the show can already tell whats gonna happen. lol.

before movie i was at pomo/paradiz. ate buffet at Momiji Japanese Buffet with marianne and venassa. quite a spread la the food. not very bad for a buffet. next fri is sakae! LOL

yea so after lunch went play audi at LAN. omg play play play. then played for 2hrs. just kept playing song after song. quite shoik. very long nv play le. hahaha. i shud install it again. HOPEFULLY this time can work. =/

yea yea tmr jerald's out! prolly gonna meet him like finally. been so many days already. tsk tsk. hopefully he can meet us earlier. since i have work at 4pm. haha. sadly and disappointingly, ian and ben not going to join us. haiz.

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kk gonna sleep.

blog blog! today was quite an awesome day! played pool with shawn michelle and justin. quite a good game. been so long since we all went out. jy for ur olvl chinese k shawn! after that we go out again. haha. hmmm. after pool we went LAN! dam crappy! LOL. oh then played AUDITION with michelle. not bad i still got my skills. i still can chance. wanna play it back again sia. lol.

yea after that headed to bugis for dinner with sarah champ and ian. i actually walked to bugis from pomo. actually i din know how to go. as in wasnt so clear. then just decided to walk straight and turn left. then i saw iluma. took me alot shorter time than i thot. and the soy milk i was drinking was SO AWESOME! hahaha. no sun somemore. hee.

had dinner at noodlestar. think tats the name. after that walked ard in bugis street! been so long man. champ bought a shirt too. actually if he din buy it i wud have. maybe shud have got the blue one. oh wells. after that slacked at starbucks. machiam stay there for nth. was supposed to get a drink but din then ate ice cream from macs. haha dam funny ice cream from macs but we're sitting at starbucks and we din even buy a drink there. LOL!?

supposed to go cine and kbox but aiya alot of irritating things happened then nv go. end up go home. and 133 took so dam dam dam long to come!! tsk tsk. finally came and im finally home.

think i gotta start sleeping early and avoid heaty stuff, at least till my grad is over. dun wanna go for it with pimples -.-!

dental tmr! then duno what im gonna do during the day. lol.

kk my bro jerald went back into tekong and will be out in 4 days! hahaha. k time to sleep bahs i guess. quite tired also...

i wanna go taiwan~ i wanna go bintan~

gab is posting again!! =DD

MY BROTHER IS BACK!! WHOO~! hahaha. talked on the phone for like.....30-45mins i think. quite long hor. lol. but it was fun. so many things to talk about. marching, meals, sleeps, bathings, kinda alot. also got specialists, commando, officers, etc etc. quite cool. hee. happy. =D prolly meeting him in the evening tmr! then can see him in his uniform. haha.

WORK today! woots two days in a row le. legs pain liaos. haha. tmr PH! BUT gab isnt working. :(

so no double pay. oh wells. but im going pool with justin shawn and his gf!! 3am in the morning and im still wide awake... haha

just watched naruto movie. and its only 'normal'. pop out one LEGENDARY super rasengan. LOL! hahaha dam funny.

oh oh OH! i applied for part time job at 'Bottles & Bottles'. just OPPOSITE Joe & Dough! hahaha. thot of learning about wine since i have the time to take on two part time jobs. hehe.

man i wanna learn dancing! but duno if i shud go hip hop or breaking. breaking seems more fun but hiphop like more interesting. erk. DILEMAS! also wanna learn BOJUKA! like quite cool. oh man. so many things. hahaha. all cost $$! needa work more first. ><

oh ya today watched fast and furious 5. wasnt tat fantastic to me. well, i din have an expectation to begin with. so oh wells.

woots i shall blog more from now on. so encouraging to blog with this skin. hehe. anw work today! man i shud really get a second part time job soon. like work this one so many months le. lol.

anw today there was these female customers who were super irritating. wth. we close le still sit there so long. literally 3-4hrs. omg. end up i cant sweep or mop the floor. becos the two of them SIT THERE in the MIDDLE of the whole area. i cant start sweeping/mopping ANYWHERE cos i duno when they wud leave. bloody hell. i started sweeping at like 10.30pm. and we close at 10pm. wtf. zzz

kk very shagged journey home. kinda rubbish. carrying so many breads home. dun even know why i care. i bring home sandwiches for the ppl in the hse to have for breakfast the next day and shithell dun eat it the next morning. then wasted the sandwiches, end up throw away. cud have left it at the store for the staff ppl to eat. bring home cakes also dun eat. wait till gonna spoil or spoil already then come ask me whether can eat. walao.

ANW my brother is booking out tmr! cos of vesak day. but then he's going back on the night of vesak. erk. but he's gonna come out again on sat.....EVENING.. omg im working. LOL!?

dam fail. prolly try to meet him on tues or something. hopefully. =P

OH and i wanna watch priest! bloody hell keep hearing ppl ard me talk about how nice it is and its not horror. duno why the cinemas rate it as horror. not like there's ghosts or demons or whatever. cos of this dumb rating, so many ppl dun wanna watch with me. -.-?

kk shall stop here. working tmr at 9am!! =x earlyyy. and its 1am now. time to sleep! =D

haha been so free lately. shall start updating my blog. lol.

ok woke up dam late today. cos slept at 5+. clubbing was fun man. somehow. HAHA

yea yea went lunch with sis and mum at city square mall at 3pm. holy shit so late lunch hor. drove there then drove home. took passport and went into JB with mum to collect my contact lens. learnt to pump petrol and had groceries shopping followed by dinner. wanton mee was GOOD! whoo~

drove back from woodlands checkpoint. wah nice to speed once in a while. =D went to pp to tapao dinner for dad then went home. quite shoik today drive quite long, terms of distance.

hmmm im so free man. kinda miss sch. dam. can i like go sch and crash someone's lecture? hahaha.

working tmr ! but its 4pm to 11pm. shagg. then sat going out with shawn and justin. like finally. their exams over. shawn gonna intro his gf also. heard she's good at pool. HMMMM...

anw prolly changing this dumb blogskin and songs SOONish. kinda lazy lately. =x

oh oh and i wanna go TAIWAN! or BINTAN RESORTS! go holiday before army.. :(

kk shall end here. tiring day. buaiz~

man it feels great to just let it all out. even if they're selfish thots/emotions, im not deleting the post. its for the eyes of myself and those who care. =))

hmmm its been so long. wonder if anyone even comes here anymore. anyway, since im blogging. means i have something to say or i just wanna express my emotions thru.....SOMETHING. -.-?

yea so.....

life has been crappy and sucky. ever since my bro went into NS. the entire grp of us just feels so 'gone' to me. duno why leh. talk about meetings. i wonder if it makes any difference at all. whats the point of agreeing to something that in the end, decide to change. its not just the indecisiveness, it can also lead to the disruption of a good day's plan! so much so its ridiculous. then come pop up some 'replacement' activity, might as well forget it?

then whats the point of making the effort to keep days free just for a small gathering and then on the day before cancel on it? then having talks of wanting to change the usual plan but then never gets down to deciding on ANYTHING, yet again.

yea i get that there's sch and work and blah blah blah of ur life. well, SURPRISE! gab has a life too!? and i plan and manage my time to suit the best i can, but no one else gives a shit? or so it seems, too bad if im wrong. i just hate last min 'aeroplane flights'.

yea i know its probably selfish of me to be saying things like this, but HEY! i think its pretty unfair that these decisions come with a reason and i can only say 'ok'. and besides, no one cares anw? family dun even bother. they're like 'hey u're 20, u can be responsible for ur own actions.' but goes 'drive carefully, etc etc.' when in the car with me, not once or twice or thrice but some ridiculous uncountable number of times. lol? and everything else about me they're not bothered. there's a difference between the well being of the body and the well being of the mind u know?

ooo next! the love life. haha want to 'reconcile' but duno if its the right thing to do. dun even know if the other party still has feelings huh? not like i can just ask. lol. but wud the party be willing to sacrifice the weekends once i go NS? and how sure am i that the r/s will work out fine? ohh dilemas....but then, aiyo, not like there isnt anything going on? chu lian is never forgotten. how how how?

kk not like anyone wud ever read this since its been dead for so long. and yea i have a problem, and im ready to talk it out as frens. thanks~ =D

if anyone cares even, they'll find a way to read this. . . .not that its very hard....