~EaN~

hmmm its been so long. wonder if anyone even comes here anymore. anyway, since im blogging. means i have something to say or i just wanna express my emotions thru.....SOMETHING. -.-?

yea so.....

life has been crappy and sucky. ever since my bro went into NS. the entire grp of us just feels so 'gone' to me. duno why leh. talk about meetings. i wonder if it makes any difference at all. whats the point of agreeing to something that in the end, decide to change. its not just the indecisiveness, it can also lead to the disruption of a good day's plan! so much so its ridiculous. then come pop up some 'replacement' activity, might as well forget it?

then whats the point of making the effort to keep days free just for a small gathering and then on the day before cancel on it? then having talks of wanting to change the usual plan but then never gets down to deciding on ANYTHING, yet again.

yea i get that there's sch and work and blah blah blah of ur life. well, SURPRISE! gab has a life too!? and i plan and manage my time to suit the best i can, but no one else gives a shit? or so it seems, too bad if im wrong. i just hate last min 'aeroplane flights'.

yea i know its probably selfish of me to be saying things like this, but HEY! i think its pretty unfair that these decisions come with a reason and i can only say 'ok'. and besides, no one cares anw? family dun even bother. they're like 'hey u're 20, u can be responsible for ur own actions.' but goes 'drive carefully, etc etc.' when in the car with me, not once or twice or thrice but some ridiculous uncountable number of times. lol? and everything else about me they're not bothered. there's a difference between the well being of the body and the well being of the mind u know?

ooo next! the love life. haha want to 'reconcile' but duno if its the right thing to do. dun even know if the other party still has feelings huh? not like i can just ask. lol. but wud the party be willing to sacrifice the weekends once i go NS? and how sure am i that the r/s will work out fine? ohh dilemas....but then, aiyo, not like there isnt anything going on? chu lian is never forgotten. how how how?

kk not like anyone wud ever read this since its been dead for so long. and yea i have a problem, and im ready to talk it out as frens. thanks~ =D

if anyone cares even, they'll find a way to read this. . . .not that its very hard....